Let's NOT sugarcoat it, I am JOBLESS, unemployed, out of work, lazy millennial bum, trash, useless, inactive whatever is rolling off the people's tongue these days okay that's me.
I mean personally I'm not mad. I chose this. I willingly put in my two-weeks and left without at least making sure I had the promise of another job elsewhere. WHICH EVERYONE TOLD ME TO DO. My parent's (dad most specifically), even an old coworker who was like "DON'T MAKE THE SAME MISTAKE I DID" But I was like,
NO. Hindsight is 20/20, and this is one of those moments I wish I listened to someone!! In my head I was like oh I'll leave this place and be able to find another job no problem. Not only am I having so much trouble finding a new job that pays me at least what I left HDOS with, but I'm also trying to set the bar higher and not do fast food. I refuse to cook other peoples food anymore. I can't. I'll serve, but not cook. Also I have to find a job in reasonable distance since I don't drive. I'm struggling okay. I'm twenty let me live and learn and frantically try to figure it out.
And to top it off I feel like I'm on a timer because Dom&co will be moving in and I feel like I need to be working before April so that way I can contribute my fair share, so it's like I'm on this crazy deadline of now one month. Plus I still am unsure what I actually want to do for school. I'm thinking learning a trade like massage therapy it's always hiring here, but my dream is to teach, but I have anxiety and today's kids are horrible!
I mean personally I'm not mad. I chose this. I willingly put in my two-weeks and left without at least making sure I had the promise of another job elsewhere. WHICH EVERYONE TOLD ME TO DO. My parent's (dad most specifically), even an old coworker who was like "DON'T MAKE THE SAME MISTAKE I DID" But I was like,
"Nah man you found three jobs after you left this joint, I will too"
And to top it off I feel like I'm on a timer because Dom&co will be moving in and I feel like I need to be working before April so that way I can contribute my fair share, so it's like I'm on this crazy deadline of now one month. Plus I still am unsure what I actually want to do for school. I'm thinking learning a trade like massage therapy it's always hiring here, but my dream is to teach, but I have anxiety and today's kids are horrible!
Just let me...
AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~
all better..
I'm hoping if I play my cards right I'll get through this period stronger and on a better path then I am now... If I'm even on ANY path at all. Today I'll fill out some more apps, I'll study the DMV booklet again, I'll finish my FAFSA, but first I'm gonna go with a bunch of YSA kids to the temple and maybe I'll feel some spiritual revelation to help me through this. Not saying I don't have faith, but I doubt it. I'll be looking for it though!
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