19+ The Apartment Project

And before I get all angsty and forget to actually talk about what the hell my Apartment Project is let me start on a sweet note...

I got my birthday wish and petted a sheep!! So when I'm looking back on this blog I will now remember my nineteenth birthday as the birthday my wish to pet a sheep was fulfilled!!

Now for the angst that comes with the age nineteen. I wasn't really excited for my birthday this year. I mean what's so special about turning nineteen? You've already been a legal adult for a year and you still got two more years till you can go off and legally drink. The way I saw it nineteen and even twenty were just pointless filler years inbetween the anticipated eighteen and the exciting twenty-one!

Well as I'm learning with most things I thought about "adulthood" I was wrong completely. Turns out nineteen is an important age. It's the age that you are right on the border of adolescence and adulthood. Sure you can walk around and say your grown technically, but you don't have much in life to show for it. Sure you can argue you're still a young teenager (nineteen), but best believe someone's going to check you if you act like one. You're fresh out of school and society now expects you to join the working world (assuming you're like me and didn't go to college). You live with your parents, but you don't want to live with your parents. You might be making money, but you're still not financially-independent and definitely not financially-wise.

I could go on but to put this simply, nineteen is like being put on a mental kid-adult seesaw and it's hell. Angst over.

Which leads to "The Apartment Project" that all started with my mother. I don't listen to my mom often, but I remember this advice she gave my sister once after Dominique got her first job. My mom told her that she should spend her paychecks on buying furniture. Everything from couches, kitchenware, etc. That way once she was ready to move-out on her own, she wouldn't have to stress on buying furniture to fill her empty home and instead could focus on the more adult-things like bills and whatnot.

The advice was for my sixteen year old sister, but little twelve-thirteen year old me was the one to actually take it and run with it.

The first thing I did when I started making money (graduation and work) was just what my mother's advice entails. I bought a bunch of furniture beginning with my room.

I started with my bed. I bought a new bed frame (a cute twin daybed), a mattress, new comforter, sheets, bed skirt, silk pillowcase, canopy, even false flowers to wrap around it and really pull together the dreamy effect.

I also have other things like purple and white curtain (see through...), a purple minifridge,  a new white desk, misc, and the newest addition a rug to finally cover my unsightly tiled floor!!

Still on my list to get is a white dresser, new sunblocking curtains, and a modest-sized tv. One small enough for a bedroom, but big enough for a living room.

After I finish up collecting the main things for my bedroom I plan to move on to bathroom furniture, then kitchen, then living room. Hopefully by the time I'm collecting living room furniture I'll have more of a direction where my life is going.

I want to record as much of this "Apartment Project" as possible so I plan to make a post again when my room is done which should be soon☺
i even have some before pictures from a long time ago for the moment which are quite shameful... I'm a hideous slob.

Aurora Greenway is #Goals

AKA Pretty Much a Terms of Endearment Movie Review.

So it's no secret my favorite movie of all time, forever and always, nothing will ever top it is, Terms of Endearment.

Mainly because of the plot and just how beautifully directed this movie was. It's set up in a way that really makes you feel like you're apart of this family's life. Watching them grow. Which of course makes it all the more beautiful and inevitably tragic.

It's also so artistic and realistic. The character's aren't just black and white, they have their own lives and even style.  They're fleshed out and detailed in ways beyond any other. Which you can give that credit to Larry McMurtry.

I mean you have a soon-to-be-bride smoking pot in her bedroom wearing her veil while singing Anything Goes. If that's not art and serious depth I don't know what is!

and some of the dialogue. It's just so realistic, touching, and relatable. 

"Momma, that's the first time I stopped hugging first. I like that."

Though this movie explores so deeply into love and life. It was the mother-daughter dynamic of it that impacted me.

Shirley Maclaine and Debra Winger play their roles so spot on that I often forget in real life they're Shirley and Debra and NOT Aurora and Emma.

Watching the movie you'd NEVER know or believe that these two had a bit of bad blood behind the scenes while one was coming down from a drug addiction. They're both just that good!

"I just don't want to fight anymore."

"What do you mean? When do we fight?"

"WHEN do we FIGHT? I always think of us as fighting!"

"That's because you're never satisfied with me."

Personally they should of both had that Oscar if possible, but I guess Shirley Maclaine did earn it with that unforgettable hospital scene and the opening! 

Speaking of Shirley Maclaine her character Aurora's whole aesthetic is my inspiration in life! It also plays a large role to why I admire this movie!

She lives in this gorgeously decorated vintage home that carries this pastel (mainly pink) vibe I dream of through out! She's so classy and you'll often catch her with a cardigan draped over her shoulder, or outside in her white gazebo, or both!

Her white gazebo that's in her lavish backyard. With the nicest garden, statues, a birdbath (fountain?), and everything else a person can dream of for their backyard!

"Don't worship me until I've earned it"

Of course like briefly mentioned before, this movie explores deeply into both love and life! It's just the mother-daughter aspect I barely touched on. There is romance it goes into, growing up and growing old, and so much more!

I tried to leave everything vague so that way you'll be forced to watch the movie to understand. It's so beautiful and heartwrenching and if just one person reads this and watches the movie for whether it be the first time or the hundredth I will be extremely grateful!

It's on Netflix and I hope should you watch it, you fall in love with it like I have❤

note: sorry for the low quality photos!! I used the Netflix app, screenshot it on my phone, then blew them up on the computer so....

Oops, I did it again.

And by "It" I mean made another blog ... again...

I have this horrible habit of making a blog. Blogging useless junk. Deleting blog because I find it "cluttered" with useless junk. Then making a new one. I've been going through this vicious cycle for at least 3-4 years now.

No more though! I, Alex hereby swear to love this new blog. In sickness and in health. For better or worse. To post content that years from now my kids and their kids and maybe even their kids as well will read and be like, "Wow. Grandma was kind of cool. I guess she did have an okay life after all."

Ok, now that I'm done marrying my newest blog, I'm going to clean my room

because cleaning my room is how I'm going to convince my future off spring I'm cool.